i fought so hard for you, and all it did was leave me empty and broken

1 day ago · 0 notes

Twist

3 days ago · 0 notes

well isn’t your life just perfect

3 days ago · 0 notes

Sigh…

Yay for relapsing…

1 week ago · 2 notes

and as everyone can see… it is that 2 am moment where my head and thoughts overwhelm my consciousnesses.

and all i can do is hang my head and scoff at myself.

1 week ago · 1 note

and at night, the silence still bothers me. 

1 week ago · 1 note

“Pierce my side with a broken promise, and I will bleed every crippled reason why you deserve one more chance.”
—  Rudy Francisco, Scars/To The New Boyfriend

1 week ago · 1 note

i’ve often had this recycling evil revenge thought of posting the pictures that she sent me.  all the ones that were suppose to be for just me, but probably weren’t.  just to be that dick that put up those private photos.  but then i remember that she had her little tumblr site for just that.  so it would do no good.  there would be no shame.  it wouldn’t accomplish anything.

however… i do have that video.  that magical little video.  that one video that was nothing like anything posted before.  that i know of anyways.

but would i ever do it?  what an intriguing question.

1 week ago · 1 note

there is only one thing that i can think of that would save me.  if she were to show up at my doorstep.  i would gladly give out my address if i thought that would ever actually happen.  but it never will happen.  she would never come.  and so i remain lost.

besides… it’s such a fucked up idea.

1 week ago · 1 note

so many thoughts and opinions i would like to share.  everything from rape to sexism to humanity to racism to depression to relationships (this includes subjects such as friend zone and nice guys). all these jumbled thoughts that will never be organized into a coherent work of writing that will make any sense.  or get criticized for that matter even though it is my own thoughts and opinion.  it would not be up for discussion.  i will not allow it to be.  it will only cause more pain and anguish and drama then there needs to be.  some of you might agree with me.  some of you might hate my words so much that you’ll go as far as threatening me.  and that’s just fucking dumb.  so this was my little rant about this.  that’s about all that i would be able to get out of my system.

1 week ago · 1 note